=(

lols.
its been so long ever since i updated this shit.
cuz my com has spoilt and i am really feeling so damn FUCKED UP right now.
sighh.
life ain't great for me too.
well. i guess everything thats going on right now.
IT IS SO DAMN HURTING LAH CAN?
i really had been so fucked up these few days.
thought of the past.
i really missed it.
but now?
its the present.
and i cant fucking go back to the past right now.
fuck it lah. cheebye.
i really hate myself.
lots of things i regretted doing and not doing.
BUT.what for to regret now?
its really so damn hurting lor.
but no one will fucking understand lah.
whats the use now.
sighh. what is done and cannot be undone.
the only thing to do now. is to hope bah.
bye.

lmao.

LOL. it has been so damn freaking long ever since i updated this.
lmao.
well. cuz com having really some fucked up problems.
lols.
hmms. well. as days pass by. i begun to recall to the past of all the things i have done.
sighh. it seems that i am beginning to regret ever single shit that has been happening to me right now.
and. i know.
i have just changed. thats it.
i ain't gonna be the don last time anymore i guess.
because. i just dun wanna let history repeat itself again.
well. life has been fucked up of course.
it ain't gonna be happy till the day when maybe.
JUST MAYBE.
someone that i wanna have for a long time.
sighh.
but i know.
it ain't gonna happen.
i know myself.
i am like crap. like wadsoever fuck.
i dun deserve to have her.
really.
bye.