sighh.

well. good morning guys.
lol.
just reached home from ktv.
well.
went there and drank around 5 - 6 cups of beer.
sighh.
i dunno why i have been feeling really so down.
sighh.
sometimes i think.
its quite nice to be a puppy or a kitten.
no stress abt relationships , love or anything.
just needs to find food.
alot of people said i have changed.
changed into what?
i dun know.
well.
i do quite envy my brothers.
they have their mrs right or a perfect match to be with.
me?
fuck.
everything is so cocked up in my life.
am i really that bad or ugly till you treated me like that?
well.
i know there wont be any hope or chance for me.
cuz. its stated so clearly in ur ****.
i fucking hate my life , myself and everything.
if i have the chance to end it. i would be more than willing to.
everybody sees me with a smiley face everywhere and always laugh.
but.
does anyone knows how much pain i had been feeling inside me?
sighh.
my life is really screwed.
do you know how worried i am for you everyday?
thinking that have you eaten your meals , been into some kind of trouble , everything.
i really do love you.
its just that you do not know it.
if i tell you how i feel for you.
will you be willing to give me a chance? or just to reject.
i dunno.
my screwed up life.
i cant let this go on.
well.
DON in the past will be gone forever.
unless there are some changes to my life.
fucked up.
sighh.
off to tv.
bye.