hai.

sighh. this post is gonna be the longest i ever posted.
well. sighh.
just now was playing my ps.
sighh. while playing the game and eating ice cream.
i suddenly remembered all the times i chatted on the phone with all my ex.
lol.
its was like.
i talked to them on the phone while playing this crappy game.
sighh. and i sat down and recalled on the times i had with all my exs.
and i suddenly remembered. my most serious ex was gracer.
sighh. and i rmb how long we was together. and its was like. ermm.
2months and 24 - 25 days?
lols.
and i rmb. while chatting on phone with her i was playing the game.
sighh. but. its all over le.
and we seldom contact now.
and i heard that she has a new bf now.
well. happy for her la.
hahas.
i also recalled that she was the first girl i ever cried for. LOL.
haha.
hmms. i also thought of all my exs lah.
most of them aint serious. as i did not wanna reject them and make them feel hurt.
but. sighh. whats in the past is already in the past.
and i regretted treating them like crap.
lol.
its like sighh.
i gotten my punishment now.
for this girl i love now.
lols.
well. i cried for abt like 3-4 times for her?
sighh. more than gracer.
and i can say.
i love this girl now more than her.
sighh. i just need a chance to prove myself.
well. i need sometime to cool now abit.
bye.

sighh.

well. good morning guys.
lol.
just reached home from ktv.
well.
went there and drank around 5 - 6 cups of beer.
sighh.
i dunno why i have been feeling really so down.
sighh.
sometimes i think.
its quite nice to be a puppy or a kitten.
no stress abt relationships , love or anything.
just needs to find food.
alot of people said i have changed.
changed into what?
i dun know.
well.
i do quite envy my brothers.
they have their mrs right or a perfect match to be with.
me?
fuck.
everything is so cocked up in my life.
am i really that bad or ugly till you treated me like that?
well.
i know there wont be any hope or chance for me.
cuz. its stated so clearly in ur ****.
i fucking hate my life , myself and everything.
if i have the chance to end it. i would be more than willing to.
everybody sees me with a smiley face everywhere and always laugh.
but.
does anyone knows how much pain i had been feeling inside me?
sighh.
my life is really screwed.
do you know how worried i am for you everyday?
thinking that have you eaten your meals , been into some kind of trouble , everything.
i really do love you.
its just that you do not know it.
if i tell you how i feel for you.
will you be willing to give me a chance? or just to reject.
i dunno.
my screwed up life.
i cant let this go on.
well.
DON in the past will be gone forever.
unless there are some changes to my life.
fucked up.
sighh.
off to tv.
bye.

O.o.

ermm.
hi guys! =DDD
blogging this late. =_=""
lol.
well.
sighh. nth seems to be right la thats all i can say.
so fucked up now lur. =(
okay la i am off to my tv.
bye.

=(((

well.
back posting.
this few days nth much happened.
sighh.
today was a messed up day.
ron having some problems with a stupid gay.
well. dun wanna talk abt it.
sighh.
i am really feeling so stress right now.
i need 'YOU' by my side.
hai.
well. gotta go off le.
think staying up today.
bye. ='(

=(

well.
lols. its been ages since i updated this shit.
hahas.
cuz my com tio virus and LAGGED like crap.
anyway. nth much really happened this few days.
just sadness and suffering bahs.
feeling so sick the past three days.
sighh. i am still sick now. wtf lor.
and i broken my promises lots of times.
dixon and pig. u both know what la hor?
lols.
keep it to urself hor. hahas.
sigh. most of us has been feeling really down.
and lots of pple said i been behaving rather strange these few days.
i cannot help it what. really so shag lor.
and i really missed talking to YOUKNOWWHO lah brothers. lols.
sighh.
please. PLEASE PLEASE dun be like that hao mah.
my heart is really shattered and it really hurts so much.
sighh.
goodbye people.

=]

lols. wah so long nv update lur. haha.
hmms.
well. today went to town with ron , dixon , pig , weijie and his gf.
hahas. cuz they good mah. pei me go buy jacket. LOL.
well. took around an hour or so to choose?
lol.
den walked around lucky plaza all this shit just to find a place to play pool.
LOL. and its like walau eh.
we went to 2 places. but some of us nv bring ic so cant go in. sians.
hahas. but lucky lah.
got place to play le.
well. played for around 2 hours and so.
den went to back to yishun.
=]
sigh. been feeling really down these few days.
well. update nxt time bahs.

fuck.

sigh.
well. this few days have really been feeling so moody.
i dun wanna give a damn abt anything anymore.
since u dun fucking care.
why the fuck shld i right?
hai.
can somebody help me? =(

FUCK!

yes i am born useless.
i dun have the looks , no character , no money , no guts , useless , lousy in studies. so WHAT?!?!
does it fucking concerns u so much?
YES i admit i am a NT student last time.
so? does it mean u can look down on me?
FUCK U LAH.
I DAMN REGRETTED KNOWING YOU I TELL U.
CAUSED SO MUCH PAIN FOR ME.
U THINK VERY FUN ARH?
STUPID BITCH.

stupid asshole mood.

HUSTLE.LOYALTY.RESPECT.
fuck this three words. i did that.
what did i get in return?
attitudes and laziness.
haiya fuck my life la.
was thinking of the fastest and painless way to end it.
someone tell me can?
i am really so damn stressed and fucked up now.
fucking hate my life and this stupid love thing.
craps lah all the shits u told me.
fuck off.